Leave of absence

[Hitman Zeus]

So my business manager R, had a meeting with their manager S and me, here Friday May 22nd.

We agreed that the last couple of weeks, everything would have to go through S, so everything I find in regards to errors that people are to amend, she will get CC'ed. I explain that I often feel that when I ask for people to amend their errors, a couple of things could happen:

• They fix their errors within minutes
• They act very passive-aggressive towards me (more or less putting the blame on me instead)
• They respond and said that they will amend it, but never does it
• No response at all to any inquires, I send them
• Have no idea what I am asking them to do, because they have not read the newest version of the Standard Operating Procedure (which, funnily enough, I can't access, because I am not employed and are not allowed to look at these documents, while a student assistant have that access....)

We also agreed that if it were to happen, that I went into a black hole and could not get out of the dark thoughts, we could terminate the contract beforehand.

So far so good right until here Friday May 29th. There is a case with a drug that is coded entirely wrong, so I explain in plain text, how it is to be coded to this person LMQ that is sitting in Singapore. So, I keep telling her to code it correctly, which she then does, but she does not finish the rest of the case. She does not fix her error in the narrative that she have written for said case, so when I point that out for her, she suddenly gets very passive-aggressive on me.

Now I have no idea on how ballistic I will go tomorrow morning. I am probably going to tell her that she can quality control on her cases from now on or have someone else do so.

Am I really being cold? Their manager S had her birthday here Thursday and I didn't say anything, while here Friday we had another person leaving as it were her last day before going to write her PhD. But I didn't say goodbye. The one I share an office with say in jest "You are so fucking stoneface right now" whenever someone walks in and say that they are sorry that I am leaving them. What the fuck am I suppose to say? That I am sad that I am leaving? I like what I do and I like some of the people that I work with, while I hate the work-pressure and some of the other people there?

I feel that every day is a struggle to get out of bed, I often just sit for about 5 minutes trying to find the 'courage' to keep going. I now I a still got a job and will be back at my office for the first time in four years after the end of June, but I don't really know that many of the people that are there since I have been "deployed" to costumers.

 

[bpostal]

Well first off Hitman, ya missed some quality Cards against Humanity earlier today. You'll have to join us next Saturday! I don't think I'll be there as I've got to pick up my Grandma from the airport so, if you can, you'll have to cover for my shenanigans.

For the work bit, I'd personally say save a copy of the messages you send out in regards to the errors so if anyone does try to shift the blame you've got some fallback. You could also keep a running list of all the QA issues that are yet to be resolved and send them up the chain at the end of every month. Let the bosses get pissed that nobody's fixing shit. If people don't wanna do their work, fuck 'em. Don't waste your time on passive aggressive petty bullshit.

What do ya say when you're leaving? Make up some shit "Yeah, it's been a lot of fun. You're all really good friends and I wish I you the best of luck here. I'm really looking forward to getting back to the home office." You know, that kinda stuff.

If you're having real trouble getting up and moving and all that you could always talk to a psychologist (find a hot, single one at that) and see if there's anything they might be able to do for ya. Barring that, they might hook ya up with happy pills that, if you don't wanna take, you can always sell for extra cash!

 

[wonderlove]

Be happy about leaving, because it is a new experience you seem to sorely need.

I know I did, and it was not until after I left that I relaized that work assignment had become the little bubble of life that was all I knew. And as long as I stayed in that bubble it was like being a teenager again, everything was epic drama, overly personal and magnified and all that other crap that comes with being locked in for too long.
These days I regulary stay in touch with homebase/office and so expand my horizons by keeping contact with multiple teams across many different areas, and it keeps me grounded so that I can get shit done and leave, and be happy with my effort and progress. I've been in way hotter water since the bubble days, but my mentality has shifted and so has my handling of the problems as the arise.
The 4 Fs of my experience - "Was it a smooth ride? Fuck no", "Is it better now? Fuck yes" and finally "fuck FUCK!1" to get my ego to relaize it is not always a) a fight I can win, b) really a fight at all, c) something I just have to put my dick into, and then I am better off leaving.

Or in short, just like Zunk said

 

[Hitman Zeus]

So...

Got told "to think" by a certain co-worker today. The issue were that some cases are to be logged exactly as they are reported, but all of a sudden these special cases, we can intemperate them as we see fit (according to said co-worker). I have previously talked with her about how to log a drug into the database and were told that they have to be logged as reported, with spelling errors and what not, even when it is these special cases.

So after she left my office, I throw a pack of Post-Its across the office and were about to ripe the bathroom sink out of the wall, when I calmed myself. Then...

Talked with my physician later. Explained how I felt and what have happened and he imminently ordered me to call my boss tomorrow morning and call in sick. Got a new appointment with him on Tuesday. I'll be going to the cabin tomorrow, so I can get some downtime at least.

 

[bpostal]

Fuck, cabin time sounds nice! As your long time internet friend I suggest drinks and hookers in moderate quantity and high quality.

Props on just throwing post its rather than something that would do some damage and come out of your pay

 

[Hitman Zeus]

Oh well. Were just told that granny just died. Dementia for years, could barely walk anymore (with add), lots of morphine and did not have any language left. Service is probably on Wednsday or Thursday, so.. Yeah. I haven't seen her in years, my fathers brother and sister took care of her lately, and theres some bad blood between my father and my uncle over the last 10 years..

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

 

[bpostal]

Oh well. Were just told that granny just died. Dementia for years, could barely walk anymore (with add), lots of morphine and did not have any language left. Service is probably on Wednsday or Thursday, so.. Yeah. I haven't seen her in years, my fathers brother and sister took care of her lately, and theres some bad blood between my father and my uncle over the last 10 years..

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

Well fuck Hitman, it's been a bad couple months for ya hasn't it.

 

[Hitman Zeus]

Tell me about it. My mom is angry at my father because she have to go to his mothers funeral. My father is doing fairly well considering the circumstances. Nerves did mess his stomich up so he vomitted at 4 in the morning, and then mom was somewhat displeased at him. Now I am the bad guy because I had to putmy foot down and tell her that my father and I have considered, what will happen if we are told not to carry the casket out. Passive aggression is not something either my father or I need at the moment.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

 

[Hitman Zeus]

I hope we aren't gonna read in the news papers soon how a father and son did a remake of Breivik....

Not even remotely funny at the moment.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

 

[welph]

gone

 

[bpostal]

Tell me about it. My mom is angry at my father because she have to go to his mothers funeral. My father is doing fairly well considering the circumstances. Nerves did mess his stomach up so he vomited at 4 in the morning, and then mom was somewhat displeased at him. Now I am the bad guy because I had to put my foot down and tell her that my father and I have considered, what will happen if we are told not to carry the casket out. Passive aggression is not something either my father or I need at the moment.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

Nerves will do that, so I don't blame him. Especially if it's his mother. I can understand wanting to go and carry the casket. It's your Grandma ffs and the end of life is the time to bury any hatchets.

No matter what, I wish the best for y'all.

 

[Hitman Zeus]

So its been a while since the last update:

So after the medicine company didn't renew its contract with me, I had 6 weeks starting from 1/June/2015 to rest until a new assignment. Fine, and the new job my boss found me was for a place that isn't a municipal or the sate, but somewhere in between as a more regional power that handles the hospitals here in Denmark.

So they wanted me to code a lot of their work into this new program that they were going to launch later. So I started doing this manually because they expected there to be very little. Which turned out to be a lie. I only work 5 hours a day, I meet in a 0900 and leave at 1400, but even though they knew of this I still got calls coming in at 0700 and 1900 about stuff I needed to take care of. Both boss and I, pointed this out to them several times, but it didn't stick.

At the end of November 2015 they were so pressed that they wanted me to work overtime, I were already down with stress, the guy from the company were going to meetings and sending mails constantly, so not helping me what so ever, and I got flooded with work.

So when I told them 'no' to the stuff they said they had requested and explained to them that they had never specified any of that they wanted and said that I needed all requests on paper/mail, they said that I lied to them.

Well, go fuck them then. My boss and I said "If that is how you work, we are terminating the contract with you as of this moment".

So in December my old customer wanted me back to help them doing quality control on their cases again, so I started back there in mid December. However in February my boss was suddenly fired and I had a new boss taking over. Ok, that happens, especially in my company (I have had 5 different bosses over 10 years now), so my new boss and the customer needed to meet each other. It went fine, but my customers manager went on vacation and did not reply to our mails about an extension for my contract with them, so Monday 29/Feb was my last day out of the blue. I had somewhat prepared for it, not mentioning it to the others in the group.

So now, I have been studying Excel 2010 Basic and Advanced (some parts of Advanced made my head hurt) and still waiting for something to do.

Oh and remember that I said my grandmother died? It just so happened that a group of friends had been acting rather inappropriately towards me so I said that either they stopped this instant or I would not have anything to do with them again. Which they didn't understand so I lost a major friendgroup on Xbox Live. All this happened at the same time.

So in retrospect:

• Went down with stress
• Contract not renewed due to budget cuts
• The Xbox Live incident
  
• Grandmother died
• Parents fighting
  
• Probably not going to see my extended family until whenever
• Got a work-assignment where the customer had no idea what they were doing and told me that I lied to them
  
• Came back to old customer
• Boss got fired
• Contract not renewed from old customer
  
• Waiting..... Waiting....

So that was 2015 and the start of 2016 for me.

My pc is pretty much only for browsing and some other games as the hardware is dying.

 

[welph]

Hope you'll get a breather and pull this through rest of 2016, even if it looks shitty today. Stay safe.

 

[Hitman Zeus]

Hope you'll get a breather and pull this through rest of 2016, even if it looks shitty today. Stay safe.

Yeah well, I feel better with myself. It's not that I do not want to play games with you guys, there's just some things that takes my time and problems with my PC that makes me not play Planetside 2 or what ever we are playing at the moment.

 

[Nutshell]

sorry to hear all that Hitman - I hope things workout better for you - I know how it goes - trust me ....
and my pc at home is used for only 4 things- surfing the net, playing PS2, doing my checking and porn.

 

[bpostal]

Best of luck Hitman! That seems an especially shitty way to start off 2016, hopefully the rest of the year will look up for you!

 

[Hitman Zeus]

sorry to hear all that Hitman - I hope things workout better for you - I know how it goes - trust me ....
and my pc at home is used for only 4 things- surfing the net, playing PS2, doing my checking and porn.

Yeah well, my harddrive is damaged so it reads very slowly and Planetside 2 needs to load rather fast.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

 

[Odbball]

Yeah well, my harddrive is damaged so it reads very slowly and Planetside 2 needs to load rather fast.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

Get a Samsung SSD 850 EVO, works like a charm ...

 

[Hitman Zeus]

New pc inbound. Should arrive next week.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

 

[Yorkist]

New pc inbound. Should arrive next week.

Sent from the future by quantum entanglement

Finally, it'll be good to see you again!